"Everything up to now has been a little confusing. Another year’s gone by & honestly,I don’t know exactly what I’ve learned. I’m still looking for home.
I still can’t explain why I haven’t got any sleep so i went to the mirror to reflect,looking for answers n redirected light,the bulky bags,insecurities,unanswered questions,fractured fragments..
..men in white coats telling me my brain is broke.
telling me I’m sick,that something is wrong,I’ll never be as strong as the other kids unless I opened this childproof lid & pop these pills.
Nobody inside can see with their eyes how hard it is for me to keep track of a simple,stupid,single conversation.
In 5yrs.I haven’t fixed a damn thing.I can’t do what the medicine did.I just got really good at walking without a crutch n hiding a limp.
Instead of painting a portrait of what I felt with brush strokes,all that came out is fist strokes,n another hole in another wall.
..I just get all locked tight.But I don’t like excuses.I don’t like pity.
My friends say,”Kevin,don’t you know you’re dope?”. But I’m not dope. I just feel like a dope. Doped with too many things to tie down but not enough rope.
So everything up to now,I still don’t know what I’ve learned. I just know that I’ve gotta keep smiling & laughing eventhough,all I do know
is me & I ..we got a long way to go.”
This one,Day Two & Bomb the Music Industry is an honest gut-punch.Thank you Kevin Burke.